Failure....a daunting word. I try to avoid failure at all costs, but one situation that comes to mind was the morning of the AP European history exam. The night before I was so nervous and I couldn't sleep, and the next morning I woke up with this knot in my stomach and an overwhelming sense of dread. I managed to eat a little bit of breakfast, got to school and started panicking. I remember I had a geometry field test first block( just what I needed, another test) and just wanted to get it over with. I forgot to fill in some blank, probably my student ID and got yelled at. Next thing you know, I broke down in tears in front of my entire class but tried to downplay it because I didn't want attention. In that moment, I've never felt more of a sense of failure to control my emotions and convincing myself that everything would be okay. I also felt upset because most of the kids going to take the AP test seemed perfectly chill. I thought that I wasn't capable of taking that test and I just felt incompetent.
It really bothers me that in this education system everyone is so competitive, and if you don't get the highest grades or take 5 AP classes you're labeled as, "regular." Granted, I take 2 AP classes and I feel that's enough. I just feel like everyone has their own strengths and weaknesses, and they shouldn't be disparaged because the kid next to you got a 98 on a test and you got a 70. I also hate the required classes that you have to take. Like I want to be a foreign language teacher, why the hell do I need economics to graduate, what am I gonna do with that? Examine the economy of France? I understand that it's important to be a well rounded student, but I wish there were more flexibility when choosing classes.
Anyway, I'm ranting. But the AP Euro test, I got into the testing room and realized I would be okay. And I told myself wherever my tear landed, I would pick that answer for the multiple choice. Taking that test also gave me strength and experience for my future AP tests. I was so much more calm this year for AP Lit and AP U.S, and I was confident I was ready and capable of taking those tests, and it was a great feeling.
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AP tests can be hard to deal with and yeah I agree, the required classes thing is also kind of pointless. I really like how you pose questions when you write, and how your writing is kind of a stream of consciousness
ReplyDeleteFirst of all, your hook is very good and instantly grabbed my attention. I completely agree with you about how stupid parts of the education system are but there's not much we can do right now. I think your blog really showed your excellent style of writing but it was a little to informal if you were to turn it into an essay. Did you feel more prepared this year after taking the tests last year? Besides what I've already pointed out, the only other suggestion I have is to take out the word "Like." Although it is a casual blog, it kind of takes away from the rest of the mature details and ideas in your blog. Great job though!
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